One year later...

It's been a little over a year now since I moved from San Jose, CA to New York to pursue my dreams of becoming a dancer, not that the type of dancing I want to pursue would help my cause of getting there any sooner (which is freestyle/my own style, because I can't follow others and I lack hand and eye coordination), but I still feel like I should have made some kind of progress, if at all. Actually, I'm not sure that I've made any progress. I'm still a nobody, I'm still an accountant, and I'm still not getting paid to dance, not to mention, I get treated like a second-rate citizen when it comes to the entertainment industry.

I obviously have not put in enough effort yet, but it's just so hard when I have to keep a full-time job so I can support my parents back home and foot the costs of living here in New York. I think, maybe, if it weren't for that, I would've already quit my job to give it a "go" full-time. Even though there doesn't seem to be much of an avenue for me (yet) due to my dance ability (or lack thereof based on technical capability/proper form or what people think is right), as I'm banking on my "passion", my "fire" and my love for it to rise above it, I still dream to be able to share my dancing with the world. I'm just being me, and I do hope that'll go a long way in the future. I truly believe it. I love to express myself freely, and I do so through dancing and painting! There are no limits. I also hope to bring something different to the game, as I'm not one to accept the status quo. I want to innovate and create new dance moves, not re-create or follow what others are already doing.

It's not easy. I've been told I'm too old (28 years old to be exact) or that I don't have the look (I'm too little girl like/quiet) to get into dancing and on top of that, opportunities are hard to come by and there are just so many other dancers out there. When I came here a year ago, I didn't even know where to start, and still don't really know how to go about finding opportunities. Most amateurs (as it seems), use Craigslist, which, later, I have found out to be ineffective. I'm sure there are some opportunities on there, but none that have ever materialized into a gig for me. Or, how does one go about finding an agent or manager? Even that, I don't know.

Below is a list of shows I did audition for, but obviously didn't make (there are others that I didn't even get to audition for, because I was written off based on my looks/profile):

MTV Pilot dance reality show (not sure if this ever got greenlit) - I was told that I was too old, as the age demographic they were targeting was from teens to early twenties. Argh.

Fuse TV Dance show - just didn't ever hear back...aaah. ;(

NYC